August 17, 2009

just what i needed

Uncomfortably shifting in my seat, in more than a bit of pain... I decided to take a quick check on my e-mail. And there was a note from beautiful Kat. Telling me to go and check out (in)courage... because I had won their t-shirt. And the tears came... in sobs. Because He knows. He knows just what we need. What I need. And tonight... I need some courage. Tomorrow I am going for an exploratory procedure on my bladder. Yeah. It isn't really what I had planned for my day off. But I am going... and I am scared. There is something wrong, I know. And I want to know what the next step is... but gosh... I am scared. Of the pain. Of the problem. Just scared. I keep calling His name... and I know He is here... just waiting for me to set my fear in His mighty hands. So here I go... setting it down. With courage. And a good bit of denial. But I know... tomorrow when my husband kisses me as I am sent on my way... that God will travel the rest of the way with me. And He will hold me... and my fear... and wipe my tears away.

10 comments:

Mildred said...

Hi Dawn, I will lift you up in prayer as you go through this procedure. I pray that you will feel His presence and that the Dr.'s/technicians will make careful and wise decisions in their treatment/diagnosis. Please keep us updated as you are able. I pray that you can rest tonight and have peace.

Kat said...

Oh Dawn. I want to give you these great, profound words of encouragement and wisdom....but I think I'll just say...I'm praying for you. I'm praying for you, my friend. And I love you. We've never met, and I love you as a dear, dear friend.

Praying...
Kat

Kathleen said...

Good luck, you will be in my prayers. I think you're already in good hands. =)

jenn said...

Oh, Dawn--prayers are going up right now for you! I pray everything will be well for you! I wish I could be there to hold your hand! Blessings to you sweet friend!!

Busy Bee Suz said...

Oh my gosh....I had no idea!!! Please let me know asap how things are. Sending you love and prayers for a speedy recovery.

Ruby Red Slippers said...

Oh goodness!
I am glad you were encouraged today-
I will be praying for you tomorrow-for peace, for wisdom for the doctors, and that God will just with you, so you know that you KNOW you are not alone-no matter the outcome.
God bless-and update me, if you choose to-

Kim said...

I breathed a little prayer for you this morning.

Tina said...

i love you xoxox

HeathahLee said...

I will be praying for you, Dawn! I am going to the doctor tomorrow, too, because I just don't feel well. I have been putting this of for a long time now, and I finally set aside my fear of the unknown to get checked out. I will be praying for you as I sit in the waiting room!

K said...

I known I'm a bit late to comment, but I really hope the procedure went well.