i almost didn't go

This morning... all snug in my jammies, I could have just stayed home. I felt the urge to write... to relax... to do nothing at all. But when Cam came in, bundled in his blanket and wearing his Santa Stitch hat and asked Are we going to church today? I said Yes.
Thank you, God... for the whisper. As usual, You were right, and I am so glad I went.

I was inspired from the moment I turned on the radio in the car and heard a pastor speaking. He asked How much of the Holy Spirit has God poured out on you? And then he provided the answer. All of it. As parents, we dole out a little responsibility at a time... but not God. He gives all... lavishly.
Thank you, God. I needed that reminder.

And then there were the songs in church...
Come, now is the time to worship.
Come, now is the time to give your heart.
Come, just as you are to worship.
Come, just as you are before your God.
Thank you, God... thank you for not expecting me to be perfect... or even close. This heart of mine is messy... and I am so thankful that you find me right where I am, and allow me to worship You, just as I am.

There is none like you,
No one else can touch my heart like You do;
I could search for all eternity long and find
There is none like You.
Thank you, God... for touching this heart of mine... for loving me like only You can.

Here I am, Lord. Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.
Thank you, God... for giving me a heart that loves... and for giving me words to express my love.

He sighs, He dies,
He takes my sin and wretchedness.
He lives, forgives,
He gives me His own righteousness.
Worthy is the Lamb
Whose death makes me His own!
The Lamb is reigning on His throne!
Thank you, God... for Jesus. For knowing that I can never be enough without Him... and for having a plan.

Someone Special, God and man, You were there when I began,
You'll be there when I depart, For You live within my heart.
Someone special now I see, that someone is really me.
Thank you, God... for thinking I am special... even when, or especially when, I don't feel particularly special.

You are my strength when I am weak,
You are the treasure that I seek.
You are my All in All.
Seeking You as a precious jewel,
Lord to give up I'd be a fool.
You are my All in All.
When I fall down You pick me up,
When I am dry You fill my cup.
You are my All in All.
Thank you, God... for whispering in my ear this morning. Thank you... thank you.